Throe…

Days are passing by, many months passed too. A very long time that I cannot even count. We are not speaking together unusually, we are not sharing our daily routines… not even sharing our fears of joyful moments, neither of our future wishes … Despite all the crowd around me, I am feeling lonely, that I couldn’t share any of my happiness for months ago, Do you know that individual happiness is also sadness? I have never thought that we would break up with this hard frost…

I have never thought that we would get out of our magical planet simply like strangers quit their seat’s neighbour in the airport … I have never thought that the shackles which bind us would be easily broken as if they were made of soft silk. I could not imagine that our addiction to each other would be quickly recovered like a whirlwind, painless without any regrets…

 Today, I finally decided to relieve you of any attachments of all the weakness, the hesitation and the confusion that surround us … I relieve you of that dreadful feeling that penetrates inside us despite our desire, that feeling which is overwhelming in our senses and in our minds and which is changing everything in us. Today I decided to tell you that I chose to travel, to break those evil Satanic restrictions that hold us. I preferred to enjoy my isolation, and to heal the pain of our separation, but I discovered at the beginning of my journey that traveling alone is not enough for isolation. Cause isolation is a real art in itself that we only gain through life experience…

Actually thanks God I have become professional enough, now I believe that the maintenance of the heart lies in its isolation as much as possible to keep the integrity of its strings and the sweetness of its melody…

 I became aware of how to take care of those around me, without being attached to their own existences. I can now easily speculate the possibility of their separation at any time and live with it…

I am free now, strong and well experienced to cut all the ropes that can cause me pain, no matter how long or short they are, no matter how long it would takes me to do it, miles or centimeters. All the throe I have lived has considerably increased my strength, and my positive attitude, so please never think that I am frustrated, on the contrary, I feel grateful…

I am very thankful to you. You rised up what was deeply buried inside of me, you stirred up the butterflies of my senses, which enabled me to paint an entire city in all its details. I decorated it without losing any big effort while drinking my usual afternoon’s cup of tea and enjoying the show of snowflakes’ fall over the city, making it a gorgeous bride in her white sparkling dress…

Thank you for being an episode in my life, thank you for encouraging me to dream more and to imagine more than ever… Thank you cause we have one life for imagination …

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